Tuesday, November 22, 2011

New York! New York!

Just got back and I'm exhausted.  Lots to tell, lots to relay, lots happened.  I'm too tired now though so it will have to wait til I recover my mental & emotional strength.  Plus, I still need to confirm all that happened actually happened - my mind is still reeling.  Or was it all a dream?  Maybe-e-e-e-e-e-e.  Not!

Friday, November 4, 2011

What next?

What do I do next?  How do I keep myself involved?  How can I be involved living here with my passion over there? Who can I celebrate this little victory with?  John.......but not quite the same. Hoopin' & hollorin' all by myself,  freakin' out the cats cause they don't know what's going on, somehow just doesn't quite cut it.  I don't know how to recognize myself, to give me some credit for this little bit of progress.   I'm not emotionally evolved enough so that I can truly appreciate my efforts.  No celebratory parade yet people keep rainin' on it.  Looking in the mirror does not help for all I see is a little girl in front of me, still afraid of the dark.